MY STATE OF MIND TWO WEEKS BEFORE SENTENCING!

OK TWO WEEKS BEFORE SENTENCING. HOW DO I FEEL WHAT AM I GOING THROUGH? WELL IT'S A FUCKING NIGHTMARE LET ME TELL YOU. THE STRESS IS SO GREAT. THE WHAT IFS ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY. DO I ONLY HAVE TWO WEEKS LEFT? IS THIS THE LAST TWO WEEKS I'LL EVER GET TO SPEND WITH MY DOGS? WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN WITH ME AND THE B/F? THESE QUESTIONS ARE STRESSING ME THE FUCK OUT! I HAVE HAD COLD SOARES ALL MY LIFE . HAVEN'T HAD ONE IN YEARS BUT THE STRESS IS GIVING ME THEM NOW LIKE CRAZY. SUCKS MAJOR ASS! I FIND MYSELF BREAKING DOWN EVERYDAY, I CRY FOR NO REASON OVER LITTLE BULLSHIT. I AM TRYING TO STAY STRONG BUT SHIT IS BECOMING ALL TO REAL. AFTER ALMOST THREE YEARS OF GOING THROUGH ALL THIS IT SEEMED LIKE IT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN OR IT WAS ALWAYS SO FAR OFF THERE WAS NEVER A NEED TO WORRIE ABOUT IT . BUT AS THE CLOCK TICKS AND TIME SEEMS TO BE SPEEDING UP, GOING FASTER AND FASTER. THE REALITY OF MY LIFE SEEMS TO BE ABOUT TO HIT A BRICK WALL. WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I HIT THAT WALL GOD ONLY KNOWS. HOW WILL I HANDLE ALL OF IT ? I HOPE TO BE STRONG. GOD I NEED TO BE FOR MY PARENTS. SO IF ANYONE READS THIS AND STILL HAS NOT RSVPD AND SAID THEY WILL OR NOT BE ABLE TO ATTEND MY SENTENCING PLEASE DO SO. IT WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. SORRY I HAD TO GET THIS ALL OFF MY CHEST. GOING THROUGH IT . FUCK! LOVE YOU B/F. LOVE YOU FAMILY AND FRIENDS.

PEACE OUT - JAMIE